I woke up earlier than usual this morning cuz Cedric was crying very loudly for no reason. My mom was making milk for Cedric and Colin was trying to calm Cedric down...The milk came but still Cedric refuses to tone down. After much checking, we realise he has a very wet diaper and he is ver uncomfortable. We changed him while feeding him his milk...but then this baby of mine juz pushed the milk away, sat up and smiled at Colin...indicating that he wants to play instead.

Colin has to go to work soon so i stayed around to play for awhile. I took his pillow from him and lie on top of it...Seeing this he crawled over to me and snatched back the pillow. I did this a couple of times more and then he refuses to give me the pillow. Seems like we have a selfish baby here... And my mom was mentioning some old wives tales that if the First Born boy is selfish, the Second born baby will be a ger... not sure if there's any logic there... All i know is that I wun be having a second baby so soon.

We are currently saving up to buy a house... not sure if i can carry on living in the same apartment as my dad as he's really a troublemaker. Colin is doing very well saving up and sad to say I'm not. I'm spending alot on food cuz when I'm stressed I'll eat. What am i stressed about? My weight. Though I'm doing Yoga, I dun see much change in my body... most ppl tell me that i'll have to control my diet but when I see myself in the mirror, I'll be stressed. When i stress, I'll eat. When i eat, I'll grow fat. When I'm fat I'll stress more and then eat more. Can anyone tell me how do i break the chain? I'm sick and tired of feeling this way.

Mommy said her piece @ |12:56 PM|

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