Went out to the food fair at Suntec with my mom and aunt today...Not much of a crowd when compared to when u go on Saturdays... Had planty to eat and I enjoyed myself. Usually on these occassions when i go out, I'll wear the Belly Bra to support the weigh of my tummy... but bcuz I've thrown it for washing so today i was doing w/o it. My back is hurting quite abit as i'm writing this entry.

Okies, back to topic... Received a call ard 5pm from Colin saying that he has the nite off till 2300hrs so, he's able to meet me tonite...I'm very happy to hear that...cuz i tot i wun be able to see him today. My mom decided to cook dinner cuz she tot my sis and brother-in-law(James) will be coming too...Miscommunication in the end...Went home to find Colin already in my room, checking out the games that he wanna buy from the internet...am very happy to see him... Told him that the game that we bid for will be on the way, lastest by Tue...he's happy...

Colin was toking to Cedric thru my tummy, telling him that he can't wait to see his arrival, asking him to come out earlier(wahahaha, *pengz*). But i can sense that he has alot on his mind today... he keep apologising to me saying that he only come back for awhile and while he is back he's doing his own stuff...not that i mind it today cuz i had a rough day too (being sleepless and all)...I felt that Colin is feeling stressed about Army and oso of Cedric's presence...He's having a mixed feeling...adapting to parenthood and all... I think he's trying to force himself to be a grown up cuz of his new status as a father. He has this great sense of responsibility that he feels he has to provide good stuff for his son/family. I like him for that but hving to see him force himself thru it is something that I really feel sad about...Sometimes i really do think if i had not insist on having Cedric, den both of us wun need to be so stressed... but then again, to kill a life and feel the pain and regret it later is gonna be worst... So though the tot of "why din i abort the baby in the first place" keep surfacing in my mind, deep down i always knew the answer was "I dun wanna live in regret and guilt"...

I'm happy that I'm near the end of this pregnancy...it's been quite an experiance. When asked if i'd like to experiance this again(for a girl), my answer is "not in the near future"....

p/s: Sorry for bad grammar, juz typing wat i tot...

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