I think a short separation between people helps to pull them closer together.
e.g: Cedric n Me
He went to M'sia for the weekend and i was told that on the 1st day, all is fine. He was playing happily with my parents and their friends. Until the 2nd day, ard 6pm(that's when i reach hm after wrk) Cedric started to look around in search of something/someone. Not being able to find what he wants, he started crying and non-stop till bedtime.
I find it really weird cuz i hvnt been close to Cedric since he was much younger. He's closer to his dad than to me.
When we went to fetch him from the bus stop, i was happy to see him. I miss him too okies!! Initially he looked at me as if he dun recognise me then finally he smiled and i'm sure he remembers. Funny part is Colin tried to carry him from me and Cedric started crying..stretching out his arms, reaching out for me. I was shocked really. Some sort of feeling started welling up and i'm not sure hw to explain.
feels really weird though....
Mommy said her piece @ |3:08 PM|
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I doubt anyone would still be here reading this blog. I'm losing faith myself. Not sure wat went wrong initially and when it started but it seems to me that everything i do now is not wat i wanted.
My birthday... mom tells me that her workplace will be under renovations and that she'd be going into malaysia for 4 days. OK...but wat about dad? is he going too? if he is going, who's gonna take care of Cedric? No prob, mom says they'll bring him along too. Great! Finally i can go home late and enjoy some quality late nites with my best friends.
Told them about it n all is happy tat i can enjoy late nites. Since it's ur birthday, you plan wat u wanna do n go okies. Great! I juz found this new restaurant which i think none of us tried yet. Y not we go there? Grill ur own dinner sounds fun to me. after that, we'll head to the dance pool n enjoy. Erm...grill? Dun that make us smell like BBQ later? I assure you there wun be any smell cuz there's a ventillation vent above the grill. But u're not convinced. hello, i've juz been there n u're arguing with me. I dun wan to force u. i want to go but u're not interested then lets not celebrate cuz in the first place i was asked to plan itinery for the nite. since no one likes it then i might as well not go. least all feel weird. cuz long story short, u're unhappy and so am i. and besides, it's my bday we're toking about here.
ok. u guys already decide that i shd hv quality time with Colin that wk. but that's not wat i wanted. nvm i appreciate it. will rot at hm while waiting for Colin to come back frm wrk at 5pm on a sat. We will still go hv dinner at charcoal grill. after which, catch a movie in Vivocity. Sunday, we'll go some parks to see see look look...Maybe only.
Ytd, came a shocking new frm my mom. my dad is cranky again n says he dun wanna go m'sia. and since my dad said so, mom isnt going too. cuz she dun wanna be blame when anything happens when they're inside. My dad once accuse my mom of insisting to go into m'sia when he already 'felt' that something bad will happen. coincidentally, something really bad happened.
so summery is there goes my plans again.
Fuck it. it sucks big time. nv will i initiate to celebrate my bday again. anyway i'm 25 and no point wasting money to tell people that i'm old.
Mommy said her piece @ |8:21 AM|
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