Monday, December 26, 2005

Feeling Blue~


I know i juz had an entry yesterday but somehow i feel like blogging again today....

Today i had a wonderful time...time well spent with close frens and not to mention the coincidental bumps with some old frens....It's always nice to see them even though we dun keep in contact...

Here's abit of my day:

10.45am: Woke up 15mins earlier before intended time and feeling really terrible bcuz of flu. Check emails and make sure the movies I download are still running properly.

11.30am: Bath but din on heater prior so I guess i wun be getting well till after the new year.

11.45am: Glad that for once I'm going to be leaving home earlier than expected but was suddenly called by my mom to help her do things. (not something bad, kind of enjoy it though)

12.15pm: Late...suppose to leave house @12nn so that i'll be early for once to meet Colin @Somerset MRT, 1pm. Happily eating my ferrero rocher on the bus but dunno wat happened my contact lense (1-side) flipped...got to take it out and but it back w/o any mirror....

1.05pm: Colin was waiting @station ctrl liao(i sacrificed my mars bar to apologise to my dear for being late) and i juz received msg frm Michelle tat Desmond juz woke up(*_+). Proceed to Mushroom Pot and wait for them.

1.30pm: All arrived and made the selection from the menu...quite an experience eating mushrooms...not bad...but being as careless as i am, i got scalded by the soup 2X...

3.30pm: Hving juz finished lunch, we decided to pop to Cineleisure to hv teabreak at TCC(Colin called it the Talk Cock Club). Michelle, Desmond, Wanting and Anthony decided to catch a movie later tonite so the went to buy tix. Biyi going her gramp's hse so not joining them...for me, Colin booking in so i oso not going.

Coversation revolves around me and baby... about wat if Colin really have to go Taiwan when I'm due and hw many children Wanting and Michelle wans... the guys looked kind of stressed and they all have a funny look to their face...too bad i dun have the camera.

5.15pm: Went to take pics at Taka cuz Michelle wanted to buy hotdog prata...passed by A/X Desmond want to go in see see...din follow bcuz of the crowd...instead i went to Mac to buy double cheeseburger....Desmond was giving me that look of "so-fat-still-eat-so-much"...but i juz feel hungry... den while waiting for them to get the prata, the temptation of food was lingering in the air...i went to get myself a japanese cheese bun...got the same look again from Desmond...hahaha...as if i care about wat look he gives me...

6.00pm: The rest head back to Cineleisure and both Colin and i went to Wheelock place to get my triple cheese hotdog...okies i know wat u guys are thinking...i know i eat alot...we walk slowly back to MRT and split up at Jurong East...with him heading for Kranji and i heading for Lakeside. During the journey, we were both very quiet...not that we have nth to tok about but juz that the feeling of him leaving me is overwhelming... then all of a sudden nth seems impt to talk about...i know that i'll still get to see him coming sun but still i know i would like him to be with me all the time. Esp nw that i'm nearer to labour...it seems like all my emotions are running hay-wire...

I know i'm ending on a very bad note...but i really can't think of anything else to write about and the more i think about it, the more i wanna cry....so i think i shd end here... thanx for reading... if i spoil ur mood by writing this entry , i hereby send my apologies sincerely.

Mommy said her piece @ |9:06 PM|

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

I'm probably getting sick....


This Christmas dun seem like a good one for me... nope... not bcuz i'm pregnant but Colin and I both got sick during this period. I'm really hesistating on whether I should take some medication for my flu cuz it's really getting worse....but of cuz, i have my fear that baby's gonna absorb the medication too...

I'm too tired to write anyting more so here's a update of baby's growth...

Your Baby's Development This Week
Age of Fetus—23 weeks
There are many interesting developments going on with the baby right now. The tiniest blood vessels, capillaries, are developing under the baby's skin and turning the color of the baby from a transparent to a pinkish appearance. The baby's nostrils begin to open and the buds for the baby's permanent teeth form.

Other changes that are happening:
The baby will develop a very strong grip this month.
Nails are continuing to grow from the nail bed and will cover the nail as well.
Blood vessels are forming in the lungs.
Baby's Size (head to rump) this week: About 8.75 inches
Weight: Approximately 1.5 lbs Your baby this week is about the size of a household telephone.

Mommy said her piece @ |10:52 PM|

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Sunday, December 18, 2005

What's in a name?


Finally, my dear boy will have a name and it's gonna be See Ji Yee aka Shi (1) Zi(3) Yi(4)(christian name not settled, yet). I've already got feedback that it sounds quite nice...and i really like it... since I found out that I'm pregnant, I keep thinking about the name that starts with Zi(3)....been playing around with a few of them and now i can finally settle on one...

Of cuz i could never forget that i have to seek approval from Colin's grandfather, so i went to his house. Boy was i glad when i was told that he dun have a preference...said that we could name the baby...then again, i decided to give the honours to Colin's dad...which again i got the same reply...I was so damn happy...and nw i'm sharing this great news with all of u who are reading...

One final problem is his christian name...there has been a debate between Colin and I, on whether he should be named Kendrick or Cedric... and here's a little information on both the names...

KENDRICK
From Old English name Cynric, from cyne, 'royal, ruler' and rice, 'ruler, power, wealth', implying a combinationof power and influence. A name found often during the Middle Ages, falling into disfavour after the 17th centuary.

CEDRIC
From the Celtic, cedrych, 'pattern of bounty, model of generosity'; or possibly from Old English name, Ceredig, 'amiable'.

Let me know how you guys feel about both names... Feel free to voice out in my tag.

Mommy said her piece @ |10:46 PM|

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Thursday, December 08, 2005

The not so surprising surprise!


Well, once again, i have kept everyone waiting for a long time...1st December passed and i've already know the gender of my dear junior....not wanting to keep all my frens in suspense any longer....hahaha...as if...okies, I'm expecting a boy....really...

As all of you can read, the title of today's entry is "The not so surprising surprise"...why is it so?? Cuz in the beginning God created heaven and earth....hehehe...juz kidding... i meant to say, when i was juz 2 mths pregnant, i've already got the feeling that i'm expecting a boy... dun ask me why... juz take it as a mother's instinct... If you really insist.. i would say, maybe it was the outbreak of pimples which i din have before i was pregnant and the growing hair line near my naval around my tummy...thought it was an increase in testrogen...maybe i'm wrong but i can't be bothered to find out the truth...anyway, that's not that important.

Halfway writing this entry, i decided to call Colin... suddenly missed him very much... maybe it's bcuz i hvn't seen him since last sat. And hving able to see him throughout the week during his training at Pasir Leba Camp(PLC) sort of became a habit...Nw i only get to see him during weekend.

I was crying when i was over the phone with Colin...quite depressed... bcuz of my growing built( i know it is normal) and i'm really scared that i can't handle the labour pain...even more so if i have to do it without him(if he has to go Taiwan). Currently, i have yet to sign up for any of the Childbirth Classes as i'm really broke so i'm really scared that i might juz give up in the labour ward...It'll be a lot better if Colin is around to encourage me or simply to juz hold my hand and be with me through it all...but like i said, only Lord knows if he'll be with me that day.

Staying at home all alone is a really terrible experience. Not that i do not wanna go out with my frens but juz getting out of the house means spending unneccessary cost... which right nw i simply can't afford. Though i do not wrk right nw, I still have my monthly expenses to worry about...insurance, phone bills and the internet. All of these i can't cancel. Though Colin gives me $400, it is only enuf to pay for those mentioned above... currently, i'm very worried about CNY. Juz hoping that we'll not over spend during the season.

Note to baby:

You are well loved by everyone...even more so by me and ur dad. Though from time to time u may hear me say i wanna give you up, but i wan u to know that it is juz my complaining and i nv meant for it to happen. If i had really wished for that, initially i would have agreed to abort you. You wun even get the chance to hear me whine and complain. I love you, how much i do not know. But i know that this love for u has been growing, juz like the way you are growing inside me. I'm not saying that after you leave my body i'll stop loving you but as long as you're growing, my love for you will not stop.

You have yet to have a name at this moment and frankly speaking i dunno wat to name you. I wan u to grow up healthy, have a good character and be the best that u can be. Dun let those who loved you even before you were born to be upset or feel that you're a letdown, you will not grow to be that sort of person. My dear child, you are my most precious and i have high hopes that you'll do well in your life. I love u.

Mommy said her piece @ |10:35 PM|

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